Wednesday, July 25, 2007, 17:10
its kinda scary when u begin to realise that everybody around u is getting married
it all seems as though its either its a super duper good year/time to get married, or everybody else like myself is getting old that we all want to settle down *eeks*
one seems to lose sight when it comes to marriage
and can never say for sure if that one is 'the right one'
and somehow it all seems to me like a gamble, and the stakes are ur happiness, ur future and ur life...
somehow to me, the stakes seem quite high for u wun know what's going to happen in the next twist..
and in the roads down from deciding, to planning and finally on the day itself is a big challenge
with super huge arguements (pple say its stress, i see it as a sign of not being ready)
and ugly fights and small tempers here and there, and of course make ups after that
but is there really a need to go thru this cycle?
i seem to be having the worst day ever...
first i cant find my toot pass, so spent half an hour hunting for it in the office *yes it has to be lying around somewhere cuz the meeting ended super late last night and i dun remember takin it off at home*
and then my laptop hard disc crash *good grief*
all my important information is inside lo, now die big time man
lucky ive got my spare heavy laptop which i was initially using before i transferred all my stuff to the one which crashed, so ive got some amount of information inside left from the time i last used it...
but the darn thing is the most important things were during the period that i was using the laptop which had crashed!!!
and ive got a gap of 1 and a half months *gosh*
and those important emails
i so felt like sittin down and just cry
but too bad, i didnt have the luxury nor the time too.
my work just went on like clockwork, with con calls after con calls
somehow i have this huge fear that all will collaspe in a month's time
im so dead tired out, but by what i myself isnt so sure
sometimes its just mentally draining
sometimes its the pple whom i work with that drains the energy outta me
sometimes its just me draining myself out by asking too many questions
thats it, i have had enough of nonsense from work
ive reached my limits
