Tuesday, July 03, 2007, 15:00
[hopping mad]
either i woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning, or it seems im having a permanent nightmare (either one, it isnt good)
Client's being a pain in the ass,spent over an hour in a conference call arguing *alright, i wun call it arguing, i would call it friendly banter' about the fundamentals of recruitment
if i could have controlled every factor, i wouldn't be sitting my desk serving you as my customer, i would be at home on my sofa, with my legs propped up against the coffee table watching tv and just waiting for me to strike 4d or toto *goodness grief*
It is indeed true that one can put in best efforts to do something [of which im already doing] so dun blardi try to tell me to try harder *TMD TMD TMD*
come and do my work since u think its so freaking easy to handle a difficult customer like you
and dont come telling me ur problems ure facing at work cuz its UR work, and i have my own set of problems too.
at the end of the day, ure my client and im stil ur vendor. nothing will change that
As it turned out, it wasnt the end of the [same shit different day]
i got dragged into my boss' room with M, whom he questioned me with tons of questions and things which i should have been briefed on day 1 when i joined.
but like what i've been feelin before and always in this damn office they all simply use the blardi excuse of 'you're a standalone manager' to somewhat brush off the need to go thru such things
and results : i get questioned for NOT knowing things which i SHOULD have known, all cuz either others are simply too pre-occupied *god knows what* or they cant be f*ckin bothered
well to me all i have to go is to learn it the hard way
i hate to be a pest/bug, and i swear by my life i will never resort to begging
[yeap, adelynn dun beg. i ask for things once and twice, i dun get it thru asking ill just find my way, which is of cuz the harder way of doing things]
i came out of the office sore and extremely unhappy... who wun?
the thoughts in my head was simply:
if im a blardi standalone manager, den why rope me in to do CAAS?
if im just taking over when V's on MC *how timely her MC was*, shouldn't it be returned back to her? [before you go on reading, i took initiative to walk to her desk with all the information and forwarded the relating emails to her]
and i thought that was THE END.
but god, how wrong was i, i was dragged into boss office by V on the same darn idiotic topic, CAAS.
so when help is needed, everything is adelynn?
and when i need help. these pple automatically disappear?
and when things are going well, it was something that i SHOULD have done?
and when things go wrong, i become the 1st point for them to pick out?
Blardi hell, what god damn culture is this man?
Im better than this, and i cant take this lying down
sometimes i feel so sick when i think abt work that i get this sharp pain in my stomach, and it a pain that lingers and wun go away.
Oh, did i forget to mention that V's doing my program's biz modeling, and she simply REFUSED to present the blardi biz model, citing do you really need so many pple at the meeting and but but but you're the standalone manager as reasons.
oh fuck, lame excuses
and god know what?
i wanted to take it back from her, and sent her a meeting invite, of which SHE ACCEPTED!!!
and then, blardi hell, she goes on leave
such a good timing
better than predicting that the sun will shine from the east tomorrow *if you know what i mean*
as you can read, im a pretty unhappy b*tch at work now
they say with money comes power,and with power comes responsibility and money
i say, with power comes alot of shit work that do not belong to you, and power doesnt come with money like so totally, and definitely no authority
sometimes i wonder if im indeed asking for it. why you may ask, cuz if i had never wanted so much in my life and my career, den i wldn't have climbed and i wun be where i was today, and i wun be dealing with this kinda SHIT.
i so blardi need a freaking break away from all these, if only for a few days
and i swear ill make that trip in Aug, else ill kill myself, or probably even resign.
