Friday, May 18, 2007, 17:51
someone whom ive known by chance created a link to my past
a past i assumed to have forgotten and neglected
however maybe ive not
for i found myself going back to the date whereby i pen my life with that person
and actually spent an hour reading thru it.
however this time round, the feeling's different from the last
it seems faded yet familiar, it seems close yet far
it has this weird feeling unto me now
i realised i used to talk alot of shit in the past,
mostly in riddles and so called adelynn's philisophies...
but nowadays, i talk senseless things.
is it cuz ive got no more time to think about those things in depth? or have i stopped myself from thinking.
its a weird feelin that i cant shake off now.
*eeks*
i think about life and how ironic it can be
and i think about relationships and marriage
i wonder what's e definition of happiness for i found no answer when someone asked 'are you happy?' and i replied 'ill rather say im contented'
does contentment equalises to happiness?
ive got this sudden urge to run to SS and give him a hug, feelin him hugging me back
tempers has been short recently, wif the pressure and stress we've both been facing from all factors, sometimes after it all, i realli wana tell him sorrie but he will do something again to upset me all over and i sit there and pouts till he coaxes me
id sae he does give in to me, and at times alot
though he may not be perfect, but again who is?
perfection isnt realistic anymore, lessons learnt during the path of growing up.
and i know that he's doing his best for the both of us
i guess thats love slowly evolving into a lifetime commitment
we may not have big ups or big 'wa-s', but our life is simple, simply stable...
i know ive become the type of girl which dun tell her partner the 'i love you-s', 'i miss you-s' enough, but i guess u wld know me to know i do love u, and i do miss u when you're not around me to pester, nag or anger me.
and that if these goes away, ill find an important part missing.
we'll look forward to march 08 together
and we'll work togethers towards something better...
i promise!
