Wednesday, July 19, 2006, 08:24
sometimes frustration just gets the better of a person
and its only human nature to react to it
i cant comprehend certain things in certain people's life and i guess it goes vice versa
im generally monotone in view of my emotions nowadays
except on days/ocassions when i get upset over certain things that might just mean alot to me.
and then i wonder why...
have you ever felt that you and someone else in your life seemed to have lost its touch?
im not only referring to relationships between a man and a woman, but also of other relationships
and then, how do you deal with it?
there are times when there are so many things at the tip of my tongue
but sometimes, it just won't come out
and you wonder why
but again, you pause to ponder for awhile
what good will it do when all the words come out?
will the other party understand what you are trying to put across?
for me, mostly no.
sometimes i feel as though im living in some ulu island speakin a language which is only known to myself
and sometimes just cuz usually you dont get heard or understood, over time, you just tone down and keep everything within
accumulation of feelings, pent up frustrations come along, and you have no source of outlet.
what happens then?
i once mentioned SS does understand me
but now i begin to ponder.
does SS really know what i want and what im like?
or has that understanding been lost in air when SS took that plane ride back from UK to SG?
it made me wonder if location does change a person? it is the altitude or is it the air?
i somewhat feel a loss, but a loss of what exactly im not sure.
i cant explain it, neither can i comprehend it.
im tired out... both physically & mentally
it just seems the world around me spins excessively
and i seem to be having a constant headache
SS 's in malaysia now playing golf
oh how i wished i could be there playin too,
instead of facing the computer at work
i miss the sun
i miss the vast green land
and i miss using my clubs which of cuz by now, are hidden somewhere in that big big useless storeroom, lyin in a big pile of stuff which i no longer or rare use now
im tired, i slept like 1+? woke up like 6+
of cuz wif the help of my hp incessantly ringing
