Monday, May 15, 2006, 21:03
im suddenly feelin so tired out...
its as though each and every part of my world is taking a bit of me
till when i feel that i need to gather myself together
i have so little of me, as a result i feel so 'incomplete'
maybe incomplete isnt realli e correct term to use
but im not sure of how shld i put it
i feel as though im disintegrating
im overstretched..
and no matter how hard i try to see things in its brightest colours
i sense the black and whites pouring into my life
it drags my feet, and causes tears to come
my biggest fear in life is for my biggest pride & achievement in life to be taken away from me
if its taken away, den what do i have left in life to push me on and let me wake up looking forward to life?
for once todae, i felt so...
as i pause for the moment, i cld feel the slighest vibes of it slowly disintegrating
is that why im so demoralized recently?
to some pple, they take pride in their other half
to others, they take pride in their family
and to others, they take pride in the weirdest forms of things
for me, its my work..
yet more than often nowadays, i can sense the slight draggin of feet in the mornings
yet i look forward to the hectic life at wrk of mine
for it makes time passes, and i feel satisfied...
how do i recharge myself
for once todae, i felt so tired dat i just felt like giving up
sittin down and openly admitting i failed...
not to anyone else, but i failed myself
i failed the expectations i had of myself
and i wonder where is the 'tougher' me i once knew myself to be is
if this fails me, den what other things are there left in my life that i hold such pride for?
i presume none...
