Thursday, March 23, 2006, 04:42
tossin and turning
when outside's a downpour of rain
it seems as though the rain is attemptin to wash away pain...
unable to sleep at 442 in the morning...
dear lord/god
i know i haven been a good girl,
have not been speakin to much.
i agree that at times humans in good times tend to forget u, including myself
and durin bad times to question u or reproach you
or beg you to undo the pain or wrong in one's life
im here also to beg u to undo the pain in my life
i know ive not been a super good girl and only run to you in times of need
but i beg u to seriously hear what i have to say
to make this tiny wish of mine come true, or least hear me out
please do not take my happiness away from me, that someone dear
i know that that someone dear hasnt been good all the time either,
and neither have i, but im pleadin wif u all my heart and tears
not to let things end prematurely
or take that someone dear to me
for that person is hanging on for everything e person can wif its dear life
for whatever strength the person has, i believe the person is using it all
but i know the person needs help, not from me but from you
for you to wish the person well.
i know we take things for granted
and in life we all err, but please see that we are afterall humans,
and should we not err, we do not learn
both that someone dear and i have learnt about the precious things of life, in life
please give that someone dear and myself a chance to show you how we treasure it all.
please please, do not take that someone dear from me.
im willin to give up anything... everything in fact just to have the person wake up to call me and chide me.
even for just one more day.
let us have that one more day together, and if i do not sound greedy enough, many more days together.
to enjoy each other's laughter and company
to bring that person back to my life, beside me.
the person's having deep sleep now
sleep whereby the person is lost
for all that we have err, we realise in an instant second how fragile and precious everythin is
we have walked many wrong and long winding roads
finally that person and myself are on the right path
do not take that path away from us before we even embark on it
please urge e person to walk back on the right path
to guide the person unto the right path, back into both myself and e frens around us' arms
im in desolation already, at my witts end.
i refuse to cry but the tears are always at the edge of my eyes
promises this person and myself had made, to the pple ard us and to each other,
we have not fulfilled most, if not all of it.
and u taught us to fulfill what we say.
i know not of the turmoils u bring to my life or the person's life
but i know for sure there's a reason, a lesson to be learnt
believe me when i sae we have all learnt
if you take this person from me, u are seemin to take away a lifetime of happiness from me
i need this person in my life, as i needed the rest of those loved by me in my life
please do not punish those for what i err
can you feel the pain or hear my silent pleas?
the distance so far, yet i can feel the lost of the cries
the distance so wide, yet i can sense the person
please do not take this person prematurely from me
i dare not question you why
for i know i should not
but i realli need to know
for all that you have given us in our lives
we are all appreciative of it
for all that you have planned but have not come
we await.. but its only you that can give us this chance to make it all come true
wake this loved person of mine up, let the person feel my pain, hear my pleas, and my silent cries and tears...
with all my heart
please hear these cries of mine.
a lil girl whose so lost and in pain
a girl whose smile you have taken away
adelynn
