Friday, January 20, 2006, 11:11
[exact sentiments]
feelin a lil down
somewhat like a sense of loss
but exactly what loss is there?
im not too exactly sure either
what exactly is the life im lookin to?
or that i want to have?
actually i aint too exactly sure either
its somewhat in some cloud of haze
like a complete blur
when it gets hazy on the drive up to genting?
i miss him at times
other times i dun
i sometimes find myself wondering what kinda life we wld have if we had embarked upon it?
yet i fear to know the kinda life we might face together...
this is total madness
or rather my life's total madness now
its amazing how i can actually keep up with this madness
or have i gotten used to the pace of it?
lookin back at year 2005 & 2006
what a big difference indeed it has been
old things that i had expected to always stay had vanished in my life
new things that i had nv expected to come suddenly appeared in my life
my uni degree dream seems a lil closer
[well actually in the process cuz i already paid for it? unless i like back out of it again hahax and get killed/slaughtered by many in the process]
my dreams of gettin married are all officially dead
hahax.
all i wan for my bdae is:
1. to have a super chocolatey cake
2. ipod nano hahax
i guess thats all. thou a big big bunch of blue/pink roses would complete my day
but nah, this wun happen this year
for i dun have the impt role like... a boyfriend...
not that havin a boyfriend is a must in my life
its optional, but good to have
or i wun use the word boyfriend, just havin someone special here for me
im dreamin again
[wakie wakie adelynn]
gettin older, feelin older
adelynn
