Saturday, December 17, 2005, 09:45
as much as i tell myself not to
my heart and mind simply does
its terrible, and at times eatin me up
in a balance which i treasure so much
this is a sense of unbalance that i might even have come to love?
and i wonder why so
i never seem to be able to stay angry thou at times ur ways might simply upset me so
i never seem to be able to be not affected whenever i feel ure upset, grumpy or unhappy, especially when im well known for my nonchalant ways
in some ways u affect me more than others
yet i never seem to want to have a hold unto u
i fear when u come too close
yet the missing part comes in when u feel far from me
so exactly where's the line and balance in this?
sometimes i feel as thou i see it
yet at times i feel that ive lost sight of it?
u intrigue me
yet u scare me
i wana go near yet u keep ur distancec
when i keep my distance u come near
isn't this all too confusing for us both?
if such is a game that u enjoy to play
den i apologise, i aint the 'partner' to play such games with u
for it will tire me out
and it has,in some minute ways.
yet in those minute ways, u somehow do/say somethin ever so wonderful to
xmas's coming
and maybe in some ways
i hope to share it with a significant other
but maybe again
its simplier if i had it all alone with my chummy frens who i love so dearly
its kinda sad to buy pressies for everyone,leavin onli a missing significant other's pressie left unbought
but again,
i have no1 to buy it for
take it as savin money?
hahax
im mad
on a sat morning at 9 plus when im at work
last night was FUNNNNnnNnNNnNNnnn
after so many yrs of not playin 5 10, i still win
haha,but i haf to admit, im gettin old
it was a good girls night out
with chivas and greentea
and i realli wonder why am i able to crawl outa bed for work this morning
*amazing* *lol*
intrigued, yet evasive
lil princess adelynn
