Saturday, October 08, 2005, 18:01
im lost
all my wandering thoughts wander to him
and when i let my body and mind and heart wander
it wanders to him
the cd reminds me of him
the bear reminds me of him
now even work reminds me of him
cuz ive been tryin to use work as an escape for him
when i work late
i can hear his voice within my head
and the words he always use
not all are nice,esp the vulgarities
but its him, the very him that i love
love, loving and still will love
its practically as though he's right beside me
at times i subconsciously turn over my shoulder
thinkin that he's there, only to find my office's empty
i wonder where's pink pooh & princess on board tag
have they been thrown away?
pink pooh,it isnt that mummy dun wan u back
but that ure supp to acc daddy when im not in the car with him
that ure supp to make him happi whenever i make him angry
to cheer him up when im not beside him
where-ever u r right now, acc daddy okay?
mummy will miss u,and rem u.
always always
mummy just realised mummy nv took a pic of u before.
its just so sad that i dun have pics of u to rem u,but i wun ever forget u
for u were given to me by ur daddy
[this is how i look when i think about him. somehow the smiles would automatically come out]
missin him is a bitter sweet thing
of the smiles that he brings to my face
and the tears that follow it afterwards
