Monday, September 19, 2005, 12:06
have this super big craving for snowskin mooncake
sadly, this year nv got to eat any
and now that its over
guess ill have to wait till next yr before ill get to eat my craving
its been awhile since ive been having nightmares consecutively
and this feelin is kinda scary once more
he said 'dun think so much in the dae,den ull wun have nightmares'
as i think,i dun feel that im thinkin too much, or maybe its not the right sentence to use. maybe i shld sae i dun intentionally go and think abt things.
eunice wrote this in an email to me, and im gona cut and paste certain things from it. somehow ger,ure so far away,yet u can to some extent 'sense' me. this goes to show how deep our frenship runs. and im glad that i have each and everyone of u in my life...
i quote :
[[ Remember when we were all young and innocent? We all once made a promise to each other that even after we grow up, when we are all apart from one another, we would still be there when the need arises. You’re the one who has been there for us thru the years, probably becuz you show yourself to be ‘tougher’ in some sense. Others may see u as tougher than the normal, but sweets, for us, we know you’re actually the weakest amongst us all.
Like what carol has always been telling you, I’m now once reemphasizing to you that you should speak up, for yourself, in terms of relationships, in terms of needs and wants. It’s not wrong to feel that you need something, or that you want something. It’s only human nature, why are you acting against human nature? You seem confident in the aspects of work and friends. You are perceived as a strong individual at work, in school or even amongst us girls, but you know something?
In times like such,when I read your blog, I feel the pain you have inside of you, and wished that your partner could somewhat feel the pain. Don’t give up even if he has not fully understood you nor feel the pain, because you have not shown him your biggest fears or worries. If I’m not stuck where I am right now, in the freaking cold empty hostel room in Australia, I would go over to where ever you are and hug you and tell you, I do understand. ]]
