Friday, August 26, 2005, 13:15
[malaysia trip]
had a whirlwind of time
we had fun, laughed, ate.
dun ask me why, but we ended up in kulai
[well its better den intendin to go kulai eat den ended up in gentin rite?]
lolx, well that happened to me before.
but it was refreshin, the cool air, the different feeling and environment.
[aw, i miss genting]
makes me feel lk going for a holidae
[but with u vince! i know u come here to read at times]
kulai has this '...' effect on me
it holds lotsa wonderful memories for me
as well as bad memories in which i attempt to erase
but again, who ever said one must erase bad memories to move along in life?
i believe in lookin at them,facin them bax. only den will i overcome it.
but well, to me, ive overcame this a long time ago.
to me, it dun matter anymore
it just act as a memory purpose [grinz]
lets see.. what we did in kulai.
well apparently, we got lost along e way
dun ask me why.
[dun come and gime crap that ive been going to kulai every week and yet i still manage to get myself lost-esp u gers man!]
dun forget at times, i might just be a ger afterall, who can be 'road dumbo' at times
and dun forget that ive haven been there for a long long time?
work's full of ups and downs
i simply cant follow the 'graphical changes' as they are piled upon me
lucky for me, i have a understandin boss, who i would sae.. dote on me?
he tries to fend the fire off me at times
[but others leaving me to fend for myself, and being burnt to ashes in such instances]
im simply sick of the ups and downs
but again, which job do not have such?
so as such, i have to bear with the SHIT
and try to move on with work despite all the obstacles.
times like such, i wished i had sum1 who simply understood my pressures at work, and stand by me.
im not sayin that i dun have
im lucky enuff to have the gers, glenn, thomas and definitely vince to 'pile my shit on' so pple, if please, at times i get real shitty, drag me out of it
u know u make my day
glenn...
guess uve been seein his name in my blog for quite a while, yet have no idea of how i got to know him and such?
well, he happens to be thomas' long time fren, and also an aquaintance of mine some time back, but him being trained in couselling
serves as a good consellor for me in all aspects.
we are on a similar wavelength
maybe thats why we get along well?
[okay, and now pple would start to have wandering thoughts about love inclination]
NOPE, i talked him thru a bad relationship,
he sorted out issues within myself
so thats it.
yes, men and women can have PLATONIC friendship
glenn and i have proven such theories. [bleh]
and yes, he looks upon me as a younger sister
and me, i look upon him as an elder bro i never had?
ive been having questions within myself.
such like
what equates to a balanced relationship?
recently beeen seein too many failed relationships[oh since when has this trend of me seein failed relationships stopped?]
time apart is good
but what is that thin line btwn time apart being good steps over to neglect for each other?
i begin to ponder at such at times.
thru the bad times in recent days
vince has shown that he might be preoccupied with things
but he would take time out for me.
maybe not as to console me
but him being with me, sort of helps me.
but when the time ends, at times i question myself 'when will i next see him again?'
definitely, our clashing work schedules do not help at all.
i miss the times where he would bring me out with him, even if its doing his stuff.
talkin rubbish is 1 thing we both have btwn us [hahax]
but again, do we have such luxury of time?
[haha, im afterall a WOMAN?]
though i might not seem like a ger at times?
other times, i ponder, am i too dependant?
well... im still pondering [takes awhile lax, be patient pple]
i admit, i do depend on pple closer to my heart more than the others.
so i guess, erm, ill admit im still too dependant?
[FYI, i hate EXCEL SPREAD SHEET]
okie, i jus need to vent it out
lolx
okie, back on track[gers are afterall gers]
short attention span as quoted by some of my guy frens?
*ouch*
my butt hurts
kena kicked butt left right centre and everywhere else by my ang mo bosses
argh.
and its NO FAULT OF MINE
*grumbles*
okie, i started writing this entry like 1++, and now its onli 6 and im like not even finished.
anywae lost my trails of thoughts
take this entry as crap ba
lolx
adelynn
