Tuesday, August 23, 2005, 14:18
[e weather depicts my mood]
it hasnt stop raining since morning.
the morning was a complete drag to me
with insufficient sleep
and tears tired eyes, not to mention swollen
as im finally 'stable' enuff to think and recollect of the entire night events
i panicked the moment i found mum left
kinda scary
not to mention no1 has any god damn idea of where she is
not even those closest to her
somehow as fear set in
i began to cry
haven cried like such for a long time
i began to freak myself out
as the situation set in
that ive a dad whose not in sg, uncontactable
and a mum whose missing
i rem vince askin me not to cry
but sumhow i cant help it.
it was like on automatic gear or sumthing
sumhow as time passed
my hopes of finding her was like gettin lower and lower
till i couldnt take it anymore
i cried till both my contacts went missing
and i was like totally blind
or maybe, half blind la.
[cant see shit as i always sae]
i rem my cousins, thomas and glenn combin e areas with me
all freaked out by how badly shaken up i was
till i got damn tired.
went home.
vince came back from malaysia
and came over to tuck me into bed
coaxing me into having a good rest.
i thank those who realli cared, who went all the wae out for me.
in times of distress.
i appreciate every single effort u guys/gers made for me
and i love each and every one of u.
[teary & swollen eyes]
adelynn
