Sunday, August 07, 2005, 20:51
another gruelsome 48 hours
would very much love to sleep thru it
anywae i haven been sleepin much recently
somehow my insomnia is my 'sign' im not well
somehow im growin used to my insomnia
somehow im learnin to live with it
somehow ill stop complaining about it.
i had a dream
of me and tiffy and lolo
in our younger days
whereby we onli had us
and no1 else
and where we were always happi and smiling and laughing
where we would go where we felt like going
did what we feel like doing
and yes
we had the typical traits of irresponsible teenage gers
but we were happi,carefree,responsibility free.
[i woke up and called carol immediately, and the moment i heard her voice, i broke down into tears. she never asked much, but simply hoaxed me to stop crying. and she waited, till i was ready, ready to talk, and talk in btwn sobs. know she had a hard time tryin to figure out what i was saying with my horrible crying and yet tryin not to cry voice]
somehow she was so far
but yet felt so close
she's my comfort zone
the ger i wld run to when i felt 'unsafe'
the ger i wld run to when i was scared.
are ger frens realli most dependable?
and she told me this.
to put all my favourite bears into bed with me
and pack my bed so full that i hardly have space to sleep
and hug bo bo and chou chou so tightly
and rem our younger days
n think of vince's and my good memories
somehow i wld fall asleep
did it work?
nope, cuz apparently, im online and typing this out.
i want her back!!!!
and i miss him too.
and i want him too!!!!
