Friday, July 08, 2005, 04:04
went fishin again todae.
its good to fish again
to be near the water
and the fishes
and the tranquility of things.
[but it would be best if one can minus away the mosquitoes, haha]
wif ah bee,ah soon and his frends.
just got my butt home.
[its 404hrs now]
was tired there, but duno why on the way home
listenin to the songs
suddenly felt jolted back up into awakeness.
[dun tell me my insomnia is back again?]
was at a wishin pond just now.
been there before months before
made a wish together with some1
[and i wonder if that some1 remembers the wish we made together?]
i still remember we threw a 20cent coin in
[maybe didnt throw big enough an amount to be significant for the fishes to grant our wish ba]
honestly, i doubt that person remembers.
[sigh, double sigh]
another weekend's coming,
time simply passes so fast
that one sometimes dun notice it.
well its gona be another lonely weekend
[maybe i make it out to be lonely intentionally for myself? grinz]
there's this sentence in which ah sang's song ye zi
which i listened and found it to be very true
爱情原来的开始是陪伴，但我渐渐的忆忘爱情是怎样有人陪伴。
love always starts like this, and end up like this huh.
sometimes i wonder the companionship is cuz of love
or wanting to spend time with that other person
or just simply out of commitment or even worse,
simply a case of 'ive gotten used to him/her beside me at times'
for a spilt second in the wee hours of this morning
i had the notion of wanting to get married again
its been a while
a long while since i ever felt this way
but again
who would wana marry me?
[keke]
alot of events which had happened to me over the past 2 over months 3 months
suddenly jolted all back into my brain
the laughter
the joy which ah bee brought me
the tenderness
the love
the pampering and concern
suddenly all i felt it once more
and again, i want to feel it
but i believe
ah bee has forgotten all about him
forgotten how to communicate with me
forgotten how to laugh with me
forgotten how to pamper,love and care for me
[sigh, double sigh]
love and life sometimes is irony isnt it?
well im an irony itself
a living one
full of conflicts
and ironies
i was for a spilt second the happiest woman on earth todae durin the evenin period
but was again thrown to e ground shortly after.
one realli cant have expectations in life huh?
it simply breaks a person huh?
[yeap, it broke me once, and i believe it would break me once more]
with love
adelynn
