Thursday, July 07, 2005, 14:08
[lets see]
have had a few coffee sessions
fishing sessions
chillin sessions
and tons of sleepin sessions!!! in my cozy bed.
was talkint to xiao hei and partner in crime in MSN
he claimed i never let go of 'my good fren'
but to me i feel i did.
to me, i dun feel that incessantly miss him anymore
somehow deep down, i feel that ive accepted things
and why u all simply dun believe in me!??!?!?
it dun mean my blog's template still has him,
im still head over heels over him
nah,
its just that IM LAZY
[bleh]
and if u all know me well enuff, u all shld know i can be pretty lazy at times
[or maybe most of the time]
haha
haven been online for some time
for my beloved sisters spoilt the mouse?
and a darling fren [hmmz, lets name this friend watchie]
brought down a mouse and porriage for me.
for knowing how reliant i am on computers
haha, and technology...
watchie knows me well enuff.
haha.
lets see.
2 nites ago,
i had cartel's strawberry delight
[yum yum]
greedy ger? yes i totally agree. lol
[:p]
but hey, im sick, i have privilleges k
think things in my life have begun a new course
a simplier, quieter course.
and i muz train my tolerance levels not to go out so often
stay home
and another thing
not to take cab
[haha, my fatal weakness]
i must TRY to take public transport
[can sumbody buy me a bus or mrt or watever u call them now guide?]
haha...
so like totally lost touch.
the last time i took bus
was wif a fren that i had to go collect his car wif
but it was a short feeder bus ride.
prior to tha.
let me think..
hmmm, i think bus was wif my 'mr good fren' ba
took to suntec to go shopping
and took back his place ba with TONS OF GROCERIES AND SHOPPIN BAGS
i nearly gave up
[this is how incorrigible i am]
haha..
i self proclaim and profess before any1 of u start scolding me
i like my simple life now, with simple laughter
thou at times the pain do tend to come back
like old wounds tend to hurt even thou physically they look healed.
like some sudden jolt of pain or some aching feeling
but again, isnt this all what life is all about?
about feeling aches but helplessness.
know what humans fear the most?
the feelin of helplessness.
of knowing things are happening
yet u cant do anything to fight against it.
but again, isnt this wat all life is all abt?
know what i fear the most?
insomnia nights.
nights where i cant fall asleep
and lie in bed starin at my ceiling
and with simply just nothing to do
and thats when my thoughts chase up with me
and im force to do nothing but think
for i have nothing to do.
[ah bee]
changed, no longer the same
cant feel any anything no more
is it a sense of lost signal?
or lost totally?
haha...
im mad again
anywae ive got a HUGE craving for bens & jerrys ice cream
[mr good fren would flip if he heard this in the past]
haha, triple choc something or dbl choc something.
which suddenly jolted my memory
of 1 nite, a long time ago
when i was down and grouchy
sprawling all over bed.
and pouting away
and mr good fren asked me what i wanted
and i said bens and jerrys
and we drove to shell at thompson to get it.
it was the one and only.
but well, its a good memory.
and a good factor to push me to stop eating ice cream for i dun wana rem him anymore any longer
[which suddenly reminds me, xiaohei and partner in crime owes me double serving of haagan daz ice cream]
haha...
yum yum
would any kind soul deliver bens and jerrys to me now?
haha
[crazy cravin for ice cream]
adelynn
