Sunday, July 17, 2005, 12:48
i suddenly realise that there just might be more people that i imagined reading my blog.
at times whereby people come up to me and tell me i know what ya going thru, or i read ur blog, im touched by their concern.
to go thru someone blogs like some of my frens do
isnt a simple thing
to read thru the gruelling words and long paras that i write
i believe if i were to re read everything that ive written myself all over again
ill put myself to sleep?
[haha]
i thank each and every one of u, known or unknown to me, who have been reading my blog and silently and openly pushing me along thru my difficult times.
Rest assured i will move on, and that i have moved on.
There are times when one feels tired,
and would need a break to sit down and rest.
probably i faced a time like this in my life like what ive been going thru
but i know i need to move on.
and i will, for i wun want to detach myself from my world
from the world of people that simply really care.
Times like such, frends, you do make me feel that there are more frens than foes really my blog. Maybe it has given u all a small little insight of my life, of whatever pain or joy i might be experiencing as i was writtin each entry. All of you have cared so much as to have taken a small walk around the park of adelynn's life. This isnt a easy feat, and it takes more than just plain kpo-ness to do so. I appreciate everything all of you have done for u.
There is one special special person who have travelled on my small walk around the park of adelynn's life longer than anybody. and yes, that is you 'watchie' i know you will come here and read whatever i write too. [grinz]
We converse intellectually, for maybe we belong to a group of people who see our problems before anyone else tell us.
For humans like us, life is indeed a contridiction.
We are troubled, yet we know the solution to the problems before others offer us solutions.
We are insistently strong on the outside yet somewhat weak on the inside
[you once told me, ur world was dark. Im tellin you now, darkness is how you perceive it. Some like me, are able to bloom and grow in the darkness, some falter in the darkness. Be like me, to bloom and grow]
I have not tredded into ur walk of life, for 1 simple reason, i do not like to intrude, i believe u would slowly show me the painful world when you are ready to.
[which you have did on a few small ocassions.]
times like these, i do not over tred, but yet rather, let u lead me into how much of your world you would like me to enter
you once said you love and yet fear the beach/sea
i told u i understood
when u felt strong, u go there to face ur weakness, the dark and unknown sea.
when you felt weak, you go there to find back ur strength, to see/review what you have achieve.
i applaud u for this, for being versatile, to be able to see both sides of a coin
My dear fren,
you are an unique individual, some fear you, some like you.
but remember, how u lead ur life is another story
ur 'mission' is to 'save' 100 girls
and i happened to be no 19.
[on a lighter note, being me, i wished i was no 21] haha
but i beseek u to first 'save' urself and ur own world
i often ask u the intention of 'saving' 100 girls
cuz i personally feel no matter how many u save,
at the end of it all, if u cant save urself, there isn't any point
life is about holding unto faith
and graspin control of ur own fate and destiny
i often believe its always in our own hands
just that some are unable to see it.
I wish that one day, u might be able to see and appreciate simple things in life.
there are some things in ur past, in ur life that one or rather everyone has to learn to let go, and not look back on.
my dear fren, i wish u happiness, simply laughter and simply joy
for all ur frenship has offered me, i can only simply offer u so much now.
im not outspoken in my own emotional ways, at times pple perceive i dun care, its not that i dun, its that i cant. but i believe u know me better as a good fren to know i do care for u, and want the best for u.
i await to have dinner at home tonight.
yum yum
[oops, greedy ger coming out again]
haha
with love
adelynn
