Sunday, July 17, 2005, 04:40
hmmz, just got home and out of the shower.
talkin to xiao hei's and my partner in crime on the phone as im typin this.
haha, aint realli concentrating.
clarence just woke up, want to play maple ba
life's simplier yet not so simple
but life filled with solace
stayin home
enjoy simple quiet happi moments
i like it this way
i hope things remain like this.
to 'ah bee':
i know u regularly come read my blog
i believe u have misunderstood many of my feelings and actions
i just want u to know
if u ever want to talk, im here.
if you ever want to see me smile, ill smile for u to see
for u once said u enjoy seeing me smile.
i hope that ur life if fulfilling now
and i wish u the best.
some things in life are not meant to be
as u always say
and i guess we both gotta accept it?
whether we like it or not
life goes on
and our separate lives would go on
probably if we both could turn back time
we would do things differently?
but the reality is that we cant turn back time
so lets learn to live with life?
to xiao hei and partner in crime:
you show me another different side to the world
a side thats foreign to me.
i mite be a big baby at times
but wait to see that big girl side of me
i worry for u, thou u always tell me not to
duno why but its natural to just worry for u
so be extra careful and keep urself safe.
at times i get weird vibes be EXTRA EXTRA careful
i like ur simple small actions to show me u care.
[thou i dun sae it out, i appreciate it all inside my heart]
i mite not just be the best u can have
but ill give u my personal best.
im not outspoken, i mite not say out whatever i feel.
but if u feel well enuff and is on the same 'level' as me
u might just get those unspoken words of mine.
[[im not outspoken,therefore my words might not carry anything.if u want, feel me. feel those unspoken words,those unspoken emotions.once u open ur heart to feel, u might just be close to e level of telepathy wif me,n u might just be closer to me.]]
ade will protect vince while vince will take care of ade.
this was what we promised each other
but u know that in most ways im 'weaker' than you
at times u mite not feel my 'protectiveness' for/over u
but i hope ull understand its cuz of my nature of personality
i tend to hold back at times, tend to hold back my emotions and the things i so much wana tell u. be patient, ull see that beyond me holding back, ull see a side of me nobody has seen before.
to teletubby:
uve given me so much insight of life
taught me so much joy yet so much pain on the other side of the extremes
u realli taught me about real extremes of life
u taught me about the word 'joy' & 'expectations'
sad to say, the journey of learning would be left for u to walk alone
i took a left turn while u took a right turn
we both know its inevitable?
our friendship would never end
our friendship was special, and always will be to me
at times i choose not talk to u for our words might just be precious to each other yet be so exactly hurting to each other?
remember i once told u, sometimes when one is holding broken glass in his/her hand, and closing ur hand onto the broken glass is extremely painful, but one chooses to hold unto it for a few reasons, mainly beliefs and faith and love maybe? but one must be logical enuff to know when the pain is too much and learn to slowly loosen the grip? your hand would bleed, yes, but please also know that once the bleeding heals, the wound would slowly BUT surely heal.
its time for u to put away all ur emotional baggage and walk the path of life
[its time for me to zzz]
if not tml cant wake up acc parents
lol, suddenly i become daddy's and mummy's baby ger once more
with love
adelynn
