Sunday, June 26, 2005, 16:26
[yawns im tired]
as usual? haha...
maybe cuz of the wine ba...
i happen to read my own blog after so long.
cuz a fren asked something related that i went back to read.
and my 1st conclusion was..
i was realli happi that time thou at times things got me down...
i read this para..
...beautiful eyes... thanks for everything uve done, i mayb a small girl while ure a big boi, i maybe a 'meimei' to you, but somedae ill grow up, and grow out of that stage of 'meimei' and maybe things wld seem better, we wld be in a better position to 're-evaluate' everything... haha... in the meantime enjoy my babyish small girl side, and wait for me to grow up... haha.... wld u wait for that dae to come??
guessed he never waited for me to grow up... but its alrite.
after time, everything wld seem alrite.
i remember he once said,
time would make it all alrite even thou we dun feel alrite now
maybe we both are using facade to cover up for everything.
maybe we both are running away
but i believe he wld run better than me.
but its alrite.
i have myself
and i know somedae ill be alrite once more.
and stronger.
this para
i like the way he sweeps my hair away from my face, cant seem to put the feeling into words, but i guess thats his silent small ways of showing he cares, and his comforting... the 1st time was when i had a nightmare and was making noises... 'beautiful eyes' silent ways of comforting & caring, thou he may think that i dunno or dun appreciate, but @ the bottom of my heart, i do know and appreciate...
yeap, i knew he wasnt expressive...
but i chose to live with it.
and loved him for it.
maybe it wasnt worth it some wld sae.
but it was worth it thru the time den.
i think i woke up on the wrong side of my bed todae.
or rather my sisters bed
lol
was too tired to climb upstairs to get to my bed.
[yesh im a pig]
and i squabbled wif joel just now.
[shucks]
haha..
think i shld go back to bed again
maybe restart the dae
or maybe cuz im still lack of sleep
and its gona be mondae tml.
my siblings and i were talking yesterdae.
and they hurried me to get married and have kids so that they can have a baby to play with
my simple answer to them was ' i dun intend to have kids and get married'
and i saw that shocked face in them.
haha
[cuz they know in the past i always wanted to get married and have kids]
so sorrie darlings,
your sis dun intend to give you all nieces or nephews...
find your brother.
lol
and ill share the joy with u all when any1 of u have kids.
back to bed now... damn shack
lol
adelynn
