Wednesday, May 11, 2005, 12:29
[what matters]
sumtimes i wonder what matters now.
nothing much i guess
work's good.
work takes off things, but yet im sad cuz time passes so fast when im occupied
how do i get thru those times when its after work?
honestly, i rather work and not stop working.
im tired.
tired of all these quibbles [as the word he often use]
what matters?
relynn... been dreamin of her wheneva i fall asleep
been imagining her heart beat in my head whenever i see a blue r1
been thinkin of the feeling i felt as he pillion me when i sit on relynn
relynn relynn. guess onli mummy loves u now.
daddy dun anymore. watch over daddy, keep him safe.
remember to bring him home whenever u bring him out.
watch over him, tell your daddy when u feel things are not right.
mummy will come back and see u whenever possible.
but hush, no tellin tales on daddy.
pooh pooh & pig pig... been by my side, never realli leaving me.
somehow they remind me so much of him, of us.
of how he used to play with them, and how he used to make pooh pooh shake leg
and how he always pretended to kill them
they still has his smell..
im afraid his smell might fade away.
somehow he is their daddy, and always will be.
bo bo and chou chou and espirit shirt... they were always there to wipe my tears again whenever i cried alone for him. and they are here once again. words unspoken onli they and relynn would know...
and to the entire world.
yes im fat.
yes im ugly
what else do u wan more to hear?
little kid i am not, i would leave u all to say whatever u want
nobody asked u to come here since u detest me so much.
nobody forced u to.
u had a choice
and u made that choice
[as frequently said, and quoted from rene]
bet u must do care and share for him.
good he has a fren like u.
he needs them.
unlike me, where he never needed nor wanted.
thats the difference
u all are wanted goods
i aint.
say and make statements as much as you wan
u might not have a chance to anymore
this blog might just not be here anymore
it serves no purpose now.
it used to mean rene and adelynn
now its nothing.
