Tuesday, May 10, 2005, 12:27
its been awhile
a long while
somehow i lost the touch to write
or is it cuz my world stopped?
ive had enuff.
of everything.
of my job
of my life
im tired
when is it time to throw in the white towel and say its over?
seems like everydae is a good dae.
i say 'i choose to end myself'
throe.
this word has been in my head
basically it describes whatever im feeling
but who can ever imagine
not him,
not u
not anyone else
stupefy
this is also how i feel.
wonder where such words come from
but i guess it does
irrecoverable
thats me now
covered by a facade.
nv want to come out of it
weary
thats life?
why is it that humans love to make life even more difficult for one self when life itself is already difficult on its own?
torpid
thats the word i should be
solace
i yearn for assuagement
where is my solace?
in my chou chou, bo bo and that espirit t shirt
in pooh pooh and pig pig
in my work
in my drunken state [where did i learnt it from? him]
he taught me drinkin was the escape
but how come he could escape but i could not?
why why why.
know something? i hate why and where
but for him i nv hated them
but he cldnt understand
a half dead
3 quarts tired
fully stoned
adelynn
