Tuesday, May 31, 2005, 12:22
[change of timing]
i seriously need to tune back my sleepin hours.
maybe to juz that of wat was in the past.
well i hope this attempt seriously works
sick of stayin up in the night.
resorted to medicine to fall asleep now for the past nights.
wat do i do when the medicine ends?
[freaks out]
lotsa questions have been floating in my mind.
guess thats where the dreams come in
sumhow the medicine blocks the dreams off.
but is that good?
maybe then.
im totally bored
bored wif my life
bored with my wardrobe
sick of wearin the same old clothes.
wana go on a shoppin spree!!!!!
haha.. this is madness
or rather im madness
oh ya.. im finally truly back into driving.
lol.
i can drive and park my own car liao
yay~
an achievement rene always pushed me to do
but i nv got the courage to do it
finally now
and i stopped biting my nails.
lol.
weird isnt it?
dat afer we go our own ways
i finally do the things he wanted of me
maybe my fear of him was bigger than wat he wanted me to do
fear of him scoldin me
fear of him being mad
fear of him chiding me
nt supporting me.
all i wanted was support
den i cld do wtever he wanted me to
but sumhow he jus didnt get it
my conclusion is...
we are 2 pieces of the puzzle tat didnt fit.
but we tried
and failed
but what mattes is that we tried.
immuned...
[adelynn]
