Wednesday, April 13, 2005, 14:12
supp to go eden.
ended up sleeping
i think im transformin into a pig.
haha, am i?
honestly i think so.
haha, i might be goin tanjong pinang wif the girls
yay~
rene said okay.
tony said okie
and jacq very unwillingly said okie
so means, i have the green light
now its up to me whether i wana go or not.
hehe..should i?
should i be irresponsible and just go?
or should i stay at work?
haha...
[in the midst of serious thinking]
talkin to max in msn..
ya, as im writing here im also talkin to him
he was the one that loved me the most
and the one that till today
after almost 5 years.
he still remembers every thing about me
about how we argued over a cup of sprite
cuz i was coughin
and he refused to let me drink
and i sulked all the way from far east to taka.
i think onli he does remember all such stuff.
and now im askin myself.
oh why did i ever let him go.
regret? yes, honestly i do.
he would always be my regret.
my regret to my happi life.
to the life and love ive always wanted.
i made a mistake
a big one
an irreversable one
a one that would follow my life thru.
but what can 1 do about regrets?
nothing i guess.
i still do miss him, very ocassionally
and each time i wld regret.
sometimes i asked myself.
why did i ever let go when he felt the 'rightest' for me
why did i stumble and fall and make mistakes.
ended up i have to go 1 big round.
and yet i haven found someone who loves me the way he does.
[suddenly im moody, bye]
missin the past
adelynn
