Monday, March 14, 2005, 17:01
[the weekend]
i had fun. with the girls.
not to mention the luxury we had.
and the money we spent *sobs*
my credit card bills *whines*
serves me right not not being in control
but since when was i in control?
if i was in control it wun be adelynn
bought dinner for the big baby,
found this [tim.] in his hp, which was claimed to be timothy.
aw, did you really think im that stupid?
[im not]
anyway i kicked that girls' ass, put her down to the best of my extent,
he was on the verge of blowing.
surprisingly there was no yelling session, but more of a sit down and talk session.
something we hadnt had in a LONG LONG [yes its damn long] time
but i guess it turned out well.
no tears, no angry words, no hurtful words
just honest opinions, truthful emotions felt inside, and at times, teasing in between the anger.
guess it went well. [for once]
it should be better now,
i guess so, and i hope so
anyway was too god damn tired from waking up DAMN EARLY 6 days in a row
had to give sentosa a miss, *aW*
was looking forward for the tan and all.
went to the gym and pool instead.
had a mini tan to console myself.
lunch was my ever favourite rene's home cooked lunch
made just to suit my tastes and likings.
[new book i bought]
its a great book,
a girls' book
but i loved it
its funny, yet reflects exactly what a girl is thinking.
i love it,
sadly im gonna finish it soon.
whats next?
i might start buying back all the books, and catch up on reading
it gives me solace
lets me think clearly
[subaru meet up]
at jalan kayu
met up with this other subaru guy called danny.
he never asked my name, but we chatted.
till when we were about to leave, he said something real [and i mean it] wrong
he said, 'oh whats your name again, i forgot your name since the last meet up we had'
and i was like [eye balls enlarged, surprised look at him, plus a questioning look at rene] and said innocently to danny[7656] 'oh it was not me'.
and he went silent, and sheepishly went 'oops'
well it was a big oops to rene. we said our usual good byes and got into the car.
when we got into the car on the way to dam, i innocently asked him, so when was the last meet up, he mumbled, 'oh maybe 8 months 1 year ago?'
i paused, and told him,' it should be 1 year ago instead of 8 months, cuz then i was with you, and if it was 8 months, and u had brought her instead...[i paused... allowing him to fill up his own blanks...]
and after about half a song of silence, i turned to him and said, 'it should be her then'.he simply shrugged it off.
[my god] how could danny mix me and her up? in which tiny mi-nute sense we look even similar [twists my stomach that i could ever look like her] *instant yucks* but well, who can blame danny, he innocently saw her once. and never saw her again. i guess he's in no position to be blamed by me? haha.
[dam]
short session to meet up yandao and the guys.
wondered for a moment why go down for that 20 mins?
i was half awake, and feeling very sleepy.
i hadnt slept much thru the weekend, no late mornings, no afternoon naps.
aw, i missed out on so much *whimpers*
lucky he was sensitive enuff to know im tired, and gently rejected yandao's proposal to go into malaysia, or i was sure, my glares were enough to kill him.
[home]
surfed the net, him actually
i was lying on his lap, face facing towards his tummy.
faintly smelt like a baby for a moment.
his hands were on my shoulder.
naughty me didnt want to go to bed without him [hehe]
so i sleepily with my eyes half closed laid on his lap.
halfway he dragged me into the room,
where instead of tuckin me into bed, we ended up wrestling with each other.
haha, thats where i have fun with him, so somehow we try to get on top of each other. till someone gives up. [he won last night :(]
went out for a cigg, talked to alvin.
he's worse a chimney than me now.
he shld sponsor my cigg treats man haha
talked about him and brenda.
somehow i felt that i was putting the relationship down
but honestly i wasnt
i just felt its not fair to him
and that he deserved better.
call me protective? haha.
well guess this time he's really got it worked out
and he seems determined,
hopefully this time he emerges out a better stronger man
[bedtime]
i slept short, but sweetly
maybe i felt better.
maybe it was cuz of him
hearing his breathing sounds when i sleep gives me a soothing feeling
like something you unconsciously get used to in your life
just like chou chou and bo bo
just like the smell he has on him whenever i hug him.
i woke up got ready for work.
kissed him gently on his forehead [yes i had to struggle with the pillow on his head]
and left for work.
