Friday, March 18, 2005, 13:49
[TGIF]
its finally friday
for the 1st time in such a long time im really glad its fridae :)
it seems that ive been having long days all thru the week.
home late everyday
sleep late everyday
i feel im almost dying
is this my punishment for having a holidae last week?
-cries-
this week is pretty quiet, yet sweet?
is that the word to use?
or peaceful?
warming?
loving?
dunno.. cant really think straight..
anywae good news, i finally finished the CS manual.
now the bad news,i still got ops manual to do.
-cries louder-
was more whiny this week
probably cuz stress at work
and not enuff sleep
but he bore with it.
and my whiny fake crying,rolling all over the bed tantrums.
3 times this week he had to push me out of bed just to wake me up
new record man.
haha, thats how tired i am
his breathing sounds at night put me to sleep
places me in ease.
didnt really spend much time with him cuz work took me away from him pretty much
let him went out with the boys
cant be so selfish cuz i cant go den he cant go
thought about it for some time
he still has that 'bf integrity' thing to me.
so i guess i wun get nasty surprises?
[max]
dunno why all of a sudden thought about him
but it was nice thoughts, dun worry boy
remember how his room looked like
bet it still does look the same now
remembered that we always fought for the side of the bed that was against the wall
remembered sittin on the bed while he was doing his project work
remembered him doin my project for me while i was sleeping away [haha,yesh im a pig]
remember chucky and the bride
remembered ribena and orange juice
somehow my habits of drinking ribena and orange juice faded when he faded into my past. [weird huh,how something u love so much just simply fades away with that person]
remembered my flowers
remember being angry cuz he overslept
remember sneakin out of tutorial just to meet him, still angry of cuz
but when i saw him walkin, his image getting bigger by the second
and when i saw what he was up to, i simply broke into a smile
a smile that was meant just for him
thou thinkin back i must have looked like a dumb fool standin there alone smiling to myself.
it was sweet.
it was true, maybe the truest.
it was a promise to eternity
the emails, the notes, the letters.
the times we both broke down and cry, hugging together
the way we seek warmth and security within 1 another.
the way our rings fitted on our finger [i still have it]
the way we were so different yet so similar
[many say our smiles are exactly the same, that we looked like siblings more than he and his sis]
the way he looked when i first saw him in his shirt pants and coat [wa charming]
the way his eyes looked when he told me he was leaving with eva.
the way eva looked at me,with such piercing hatred,
the way i looked at him,with such painful hurting eyes
with the way he looked at me, such sorry helpless,dunno what to do eyes
i still remember the way he smells.
i still remember everything,
thou it was years back
time flies.
our start when i was that young.
in starhub.
with his wutang clan sweat shirt.
i still have that black one with me
it went to bed with me for many many months
[pet shop guy]
the 'newness' i saw him you attracted me
somehow fate brought us together
well technically it wasn't really together.
it was closer, but not close enough i guess
i remember u buying me food whenever i whined that i was hungry
came to acc me in the afternoons when u had nothing to do
and of cuz as usual i was bored
played with princess.
i wld say princess started off with u.
she was that 'fate'?
i love her dearly,and she does remind me of u from time to time
we spent your birthday together.
paragon it was at first.
i gave u a dumb cake.
which we never managed to eat.
had swensens.
and when we were crossin the road, somehow u held my hand
but i took it away
remember u lookin for my missing dog wif me
we thought we found it
till u cleaned it up
and i realised it wasnt so
[i cried, and u lent me your shoulder]
at that moment, it felt right, but deep down i knew it was not so.
i was not right for u, as u were not right for me
i remember that ride in the mercs.
when i was tired, i laid my head on your shoulders.
and napped.
and woke up by you kissing me on my closed eyes
no1 had ever done that before
i always remembered it.
will remember you mivec.[8799]
somehow our newness we saw in each other faded,
i was upset.
but i moved on, life goes on.
u still wld call to tease me now and then
i always had loved your calls.
then you had [2540]
i felt somehow u sold our short short memories away
u walked close a few times more
but each time i took a firm stand away
im tired. think ill cont later or tml.
bye,
ade whose floatin in and out of a daze
in n out of past memories
