Thursday, March 03, 2005, 16:24
[e call of awakening]
im not a bad gf
we are just not right.
he's not a bad bf
he's just inadequate in being selfishless for someone else
its not that i dunno how to love him
its that he's simply too difficult to be loved
its not that he dunno how to love me
its simply that he dun try [which is why hurts the most]
im not overly demanding
i just need pampering.
ure overly demanding
yet i give in everytime
u said im possessive. aint u too?
if im possessive, what does that make u out to?
if ull only say you love me,
ill give up the world for you like i once did
but too bad, ur stubborn-ess killed my love for u,
and u urself in the meantime
misery..whose not miserable? u chose us to be miserable.
dun go ard pushin the blame,
i know ya a good talker, but dun try
u cant squirm ya way out of this.
both u and i have a part to play.
i just wanted us to be happy
but u had to go ALL ya way out to make us upset and miserable.
u said last nite : take it ive let u down.
yes indeed u have, cuz i loved u so much
but u dun even give me a fraction of what i give u.
not that i want to compare, there aint no basis for comparison
i told u that before, and ill stick to it.
ive given up dreams, hopes and so much more..
all just for u.
what did i get? nothing.
sometimes i feel lk asking,
do u even love me.
but i fear. for i guess my subconscious knows the answer.
i wana walk away
but i dun bear to
for i know ill miss u
and the life we share
but if i dun walk away
ill forever be void.
both inside n outside
but onli u can fill up the gap, the void
which i yearn so much for u to fill up
for no1 else's hands fits my hands the way yours do.
it fits just nicely when mine is in ur hands.
no1 makes my eyes light the way yours do
its all whether ure willing to
i nv lost hope when it was grey
i nv stopped walkin the long winding road when it was tough.
i nv stopped counting my blessings i shared with you
i nv forgot each memory we created.
i nv forgot each quarrel
i nv forgot each bout of tears
i nv forgot how u kissed me
i nv forgot how u touched my heart at eden
ill never forget eden... how about u?
i miss the way we were, i miss smiling and walking on the beach with you.
i miss feeling the wind in my air, against my face, with you hugging me
i miss laughing with you, and really feeling laugher, and meaning it.
its not an illusion,
i know we can make it work.
i know we're right somehow
i know our hands still fit
i know our hearts bonded together
its all up to us now
whether we're willing to try.
are u? am i?
