Sunday, December 12, 2004, 23:42
its been some time since i last came in to pen down things...guess either i was not in the mood, or just plain too lazy... cld nv know why... maybe now, writing dun seem to help relieve anything more now...
ever felt in a state whereby ur hearts numb to all emotions around u and even those little voices in ur heart disappear? ever imagined scenarios in ur mind but constantly hesistant to 'put it to life'? but when anger/fustration gets the better of one, u do it, and immediately regret it but duno how to undo it? ever felt that things are constantly moving ard u, but whatever seen thru ur eyes seem to be lk a black and white still movie? whereby things are happenin at a slower pace than reality?
ever wondered why guys are fans of cars and rubbish mechanical stuff yet all gers yearn for is to be loved, appreciated? well guess most things happen for no particular reason...n one will nv know why...
...ever found out something abt a particular object and take an instant dislike to it, only to find out the one most precious to u would choose that object over u?...ironic huh...
...have this story in my mind, but guess its gona be a long one, so it would have to be in parts....let me try penning it down...or at least the start of it...
well everything in this is just fiction, names have also been invented by me....
the guy...Aden...a guy who has complicated thoughts that are never known to others even those close to him. Simple, practical, down to earth, unexpressive, typical MCP in some ways, well speaker, using words to get out of situations. Has many in depth thoughts, lk to block out pple when insecure,world revolves around him and his stuff. Career wise, well.
the girl...Relynn... a simple girl who once had everything going well for her. loves pampering, devoted to Aden, loves aden wif all her heart, to the extent of putting Aden before her own.
well i guess thats it for now, i cant find the energy or the mental strength to go on...
