Thursday, December 16, 2004, 15:22
are there are times one when feels the tears are at the edge of the eyeballs, almost flowing out but yet trying so hard to keep it all in.. are there times when one's heart feels shattered to the max onli to find out that it can continue shattering even more, and the pain continues to pile on... ever wondered when the pain will stop?? sumtimes i wonder too... ever thought why the one that care the most always seem to b the one that intentionally hurt u the most? doesnt that person feel the pain? i do wonder that too... ever felt that some things are not just about the monetary value of that item? but the insintric value the item carries? that you and only you would appreciate the value of this item? well i do feel that wae... but these values come from promises, till todae ive seen or felt none of them on my hand.... my tears flow for the broken promises, the things that i take on so dearly, yet to others are only words one wun remember... there are times when in such a position/emotion/scenario, one cant help but ask him/herself if one is a fool, or believing even thou knowing it wun happn, for trusting when instincts told one that the words would be forgotten by the wind... for lying to oneself on behalf of the party that dun even cares, for lying to oneself just to make it seem that the other party cares... sometimes in such cases, one wonder if its love that bonds 2 together, or is it just another game of winning and possession? sumtimes i envy those that have alot of mental and physical energy and strength to go on such a game... as in comparison to myself, such pple outshine me alot...
