Friday, October 15, 2004, 15:36
HaPpY bDaE dAdDy
well well, its almos the end of my long leave, gotta go back to work tml :( so sad... and its freaking morning shift...yawns.... looks like dearie gotta drag me out of bed again....
October 13,2004...
one of my saddest day, 1 dae ill always remember for the rest of my life....woke up with the dreaded feeling, seemingly my body knows it would be a bad dae.... i had to say bye bye to something precious in my life, had to put my darling to sleep... the sun irritated my eyes, my skin, the noises that seemed so normal somehow irritated me so much... i was off... terribly off.... went to mich place,slept at her place for awhile til beautiful eyes picked me up... somehow he looked normal... somehow he seemed right... and somehow i didnt find the solace i wished for.... had a slacky evening, went back took a long long long *terribly long* shower while he prepared dinner, somehow wanted to wash away the memories of today away, hopefully, even better still wash oct 13 away... ate my fav spag, but it tasted off... spent the entire evening either lying in his arms or sprawled all over him... went to bed hoping this sick feeling would go away....
October 14,2004...
happi 4th mth anni darling... and also, happi 50th bdae to my wonderful wonderful daddy... he's coming back on e flight this evening to have dinner...*and prob end up over-eating again* ended up in a big big clash with rene before dinner, even backed out of daddy's bdae dinner till logic got the better of us and decided to have dinner not to make the bdae boi disappointed... i guess im still off, i wanted so much to cry in daddy's arms, but it was his bdae, i didnt wanted to spoil it..neither do i wan daddy to think rene's bullying me, which is not...
