Saturday, July 24, 2004, 05:20
JuLy 23,2004...a dReAdeD dAy
time passes so fast, the dreaded day has came... July 23, 2004.... i wonder how i managed to survive it thru for so long, how i managed to crawl it thru to today... well today can be said as quite an eventful day, i went to the gym... thou nv ran for like damn long... went to do all my stuff ready once and for all before next thursday comes again...
but yet, in the midst of trying to keep myself busy, i know that subconsciously my mind is churning, my mind is thinking, and im trying to hard not to let myself think.... weird huh humans..
it always amazes me how a human functions.. being able to shut out whatever he/she refuses to think about, feel about... but yet on the other hand, there are just some things that a human is not able to shut out... emotions... logics...
well, if a human is logical, den why cant everybody function in a logical way....if everybody is able to function in a logical way, den things would have been much more simplified...
went to help a fren pack up her stuff @ her ex's place, reminds me of how difficult it is to "divide" stuff after a break up.. why must a couple divide stuff? why cant they just let things rest lytat.. is it realli so important to draw the line between myself and the other person who we used to love so much? it simply amazes me how much a girl can accumulate @ her bf's house over such a short period of time...
and i miss the beach @ bintan... the peaceful feeling that the sea, the sun, the clouds and the sound of the waves gives me.. walking down on the shore, feeling the waves splattering on my feet... it gives me a sense of peace, a sense of self fulfillment(however it fulfills me i have no idea thou), a sense of enlightment from watever i have been feeling stuck with.. but the moment i step back onto shore again, to face the real world again, everything comes back, whatever bintan did for me somehow seemed washed away again...
well im looking forward to seeing my "beautiful eyes" again, hopefully they would turn today into a better day... and oops i think im running late... freakz... lol.... hahaha....
