Monday, July 26, 2004, 11:06
...finally have a dae to sleep in...waking up late, thats the best feeling 1 can ever have, the lazy feeling in the morning to wake up to, to have the time to fully & slowly wake up and then do the stuff i wana do before i set off to the beginning of my day :) ...
the weekend was a relaxing 1 for me, with time to laze around... went to a friend's bday for a short while on saturday, looking @ these long time friends made me realise how quickly time flies, the last i remember we were still fooling ard my sec school's compound in our white & blue uniforms... the morning assembly, the after school activities, going out, laughing away, crying together... well i guess that was when we were all young, carefree, without worries...
seems like life gets more complicated as the years go b, i wonder why,,.guess responsibilities gets more & bigger, more things to go after in life, more problems to solve each day, with each problem seeming bigger, or rather as we grow up, we lose the ability to see things from a different aspect, to be able to see out of the box... i thought as we get older, the better the ability to problem solve???
was reading a mag "dare" on sunday... there was this article that ended with this quote tat was close to this context ... the rain was pouring but soon the sun would come out after the rain, and things would be better, and when the sun comes out, life would be back to normal, but never the same, as life would still go on... well find it very true as ive always loved to say 'after the heavy downpour comes the rainbow and the sunshine, and during the heavy downpours of my life, ill be looking forward to the rainbow & the sunshine...
..was talking to a fren who is facing probs with his gf, with the girl liking bad bois & bikes.. well are these the pre requisites to a bf? i personally nv looked it at tat way, but i often wonder are all these materialistic things so important?? never understood, never will do.. wats so good about bad bois? never intentionally went to look for bad bois, but somehow ended up with 1 knowing @ end of the day ill get hurt, as bad bois dun see girls as something to love, to pamper to care for, and to treasure.. but well i guess love brings on stupidity, somehow these 2 comes along hand in hand??? bad bois, good bois? i tot at the end of the road, its all about the feeling, the communication, the trust & the commitment??
love brings about a new life, new hopes, yet @ a silent corner of love, there is a danger lurking for the possibility of tears, of pain, of hurt & the ability to cripple oneself @ the end of the day..if this is so, why are we still seeking for that "perfect one"? or does that "perfect one" exist? or cld it be a dillusion humans make to make them look forward to meeting the rite one after a broken relationship? i wonder... to me, it wasnt about searching for the 'perfect one', rather more of bringing out the best of each other, growing together, supporting together, learning together, plus tons of laughter, joy, wonderful memories waiting to be created, with minimal 'hopefully non existance but never will be the case' tears, pain, anger, fustration & the feeling of not being understood..
well but never the less, life goes on, the world still spins, the dates on the calendar still increases each day whether we like it or not... so shldnt we embrace watever life brings us? watever will be will be....
saw my gerfren's baby boi yesterday.. the cutest thing 1 can ever find in the world.. the big round innocent eyes, the naive of a young & carefree life, the wonderful laughter he emits & spreads round to those around him... carried him to sleep @ the dam & coffeeshop, was the quietest, simpliest yet the most heart wrenching feeling i had... the yearning for special baby, a baby to call my own came back.. haha, well i was always the one that loved kids.. but guess this yearning would have to be put on hold, for a long long, unknown length period of time...
haha, time to go shower and get my day moving.. looking forward to it, wondering what life would bring for me today... haha... be it good or bad, i knw i have gained from another dae, hopefully it made me grow, learn, and best of all, smile to rmember this day....
